Over the last few years, things have been dug up, turned over, thrown out and it “seemed” like it would never end. I was saved in 1979 and there was a definite shift in my life that night. After I found my birth dad, though I was looking for my birth mom, I started having this “things” which i titled “blank outs”. Well since then I have been set free from several demons, dozens of curses have been broken AND more than I can fathom (as the Lord communicated to me).
December 2015 was my final deliverance and I have felt (starting in Feb. 2015) such a shift, nearly unfathomable. Well let me explain it this way: I am a photographer and with a digital camera, you have what are called pixels. My first digital camera had 1280 X 960 pixels. Then a few years later, I got a Canon Rebel and it is 3456 X 2304 pixels. So much more clarity, and you can enlarge it even bigger. THAT IS WHAT I FEEL LIKE. More of me can feel what IS. Whether it is love or hate. So now when I feel the Lord’s love I almost fall on the ground. When I feel, and I do more than discern the enemy/evil spirits, that is gross. UGH But each time the attacks are less and less strong, and the Love is greater. I share all of this for the little episode of the Lord today………………..
I had a bit of a hard time last night not sleeping deeply, waking up 5 or more times, and today, my focus was not on the good, but stuff I shouldn’t be focused on. I thought the Lord would be saddened by my actions and He has been blessing me for the last few weeks greater than I can ever remember, and even that which I do remember, it was a shallow feeling I had. Now I got up from lying down for a nap, and I heard the sound of the Hooded Oriole. I peeked out the window and saw him. For the next 20 minutes 3 Hooded Orioles, 1 hummingbird just were. Then a butterfly flew around for several minutes and it was the glorious Monarch! The Orioles just sat, then drank nectar from the Aloes, and words can never express how I FELT THE LORD SO HAPPY TO BLESS ME. This of course happened from my bedroom window, and the aloes are less than 10 feet away. It was like being in the theater and just soaking/basking in ABBA’S LOVE! I am attaching the images of these birds/aloes. ENJOY! I am more healed that I can even fathom!
So IF you know me, you know that I have been delivered of many a demon including a couple of deaf and dumb even. I was saved in 1977 and well after learning about all the witchcraft/curses/trauma that was done to me from the womb on, GOD is realer than ever, and I am still amazed I am alive! He chose for me a most wonderful man for my glorious husband too! I had my last deliverance in December and that “thing” just has not wanted to let go, though I am and have been free. So this last 2 weeks, i started DECREEING that those “blank outs” were finished/over. Each time I would get hit, i went into speaking in tongues for victory. For the evil would oppress my brain, and my memory was challenged. Today I went to water the poppies in the front yard (heirloom poppies), and though I usually use the rain water saved, I chose to use the hose and I just started pulling it and it got all kinked and twisted up. When i finally got the hose to the poppies, I looked and there was a gopher that was tangled up in the hose. I got it loose and then thought, to get it off our land. I kicked it out into the street and discern it MUST be killed. I do not want to do that…. but then i see it hiss (sorta), and show its teeth, over a minute or so. I get a rock and don’t look and drop the rock and then look. UGH!!!! I saw blood and ^@!)~~#(. I start declaring the evil spirit is dead/ the gopher (evil) is dead and now there is such a peace and tranquility from that spiritual adventure. So, don’t remain unaware, for many times GOD will be showing you something spiritual from something you are experiencing in the physical world. REALLY!
I posted this on August 20th, 2004. Today (March 9th, 2015) I was going through my personal diary entries (in my computer) and I found something I long forgot about. Since this was over 10 years ago (it is 2015 now)……… I am nearly speechless that I am still alive (SERIOUSLY) GOD, YOU ARE AMAZING, AWESOME, AND YOU MADE ME UNIQUE! I AM ACCEPTING MYSELF ~~ NICOLE NANETTE, as the woman YOU created in the womb of YOUR choosing! I am bought with a price and I believe it with ALL my heart now! I am not who I was, I embrace the IDENTITY YOU gave me! Shalom ~~~~
Oh Lord my God! The eee seay too ma sa do. I cannot describe what I see and feel in this yard You have given unto me. The anointing, the beauty. I see the hibiscus blooming and the roses, all the salvias and sunflowers. The Succulents thriving as well as the cacti. Many tubers and bulbs to are growing big and luscious. The critters are in there own oasis. Habitat of oasis, this is for them. The many, many, different species are wonderful. I don’t need to go to a park for You bring the same creation to me.
When I go into the backyard to weed or to prune, there was at least fifty birds out there this morning. In one small salvia were 3 or more lesser goldfinches. The costas hummingbird was protecting his domain here. Several scrubjays, grabbing their peanuts and hiding them. Sparrows aplenty with their suet. A California towhee chased off a sparrow; now that I have never seen either. The nuttals woodpecker having a ball in the jacaranda tree several hundred feet away. A hooded oriole shows up too, to survey what she can delight herself in. Well where is the black phoebe who loves the catipillar’s of the gulf fritillary. Hmmmm. Oh well later. Oh here come Ms. Mockingbird, who has now reared her young and is grabbing some suet and doesn’t have to share it. Well more is to come and its all from my Creator. Am I ready? OK …………